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I swear to god. I have my thesis meeting on Monday, okay? And for months I have had no damn creative output...and now of course I want to do all the things. I already recorded and posted one podfic last weekend when I should have been working. But now of course I have it in my head I've got to record When Push Comes to Chèvre not to mention something for the FTH person who didn't know I wasn't offering Sherlock and just...guh! This happens every year. Anything but work! I hate making powerpoints, I don't know what my research means and why oh why do I always do this so close to coming back from break?
New Year, New Thoughts?
Jan. 5th, 2019 10:48 pmOkay...I accidentally deleted this damn thing once now, so I'm gonna go for a shorter intro. Last year? Rough. Housing and healthwise especially. Fandom output therefore low. I'm keeping reflections to a minimum, but I want to write out the goals I've set as that helps me.
I like to keep New Year's "resolutions" to things I really believe I can do. Usually habits I think that if I can just set up, I will be able to maintain. Previous examples have been things like not buying soda at the grocery store, taking the stairs, and not setting myself on fire at work. Which brings me to this year's goals.
I like to keep New Year's "resolutions" to things I really believe I can do. Usually habits I think that if I can just set up, I will be able to maintain. Previous examples have been things like not buying soda at the grocery store, taking the stairs, and not setting myself on fire at work. Which brings me to this year's goals.
1. Start taking the stairs again. This one really did work for me last time. However a knee injury last year got me used to the elevator again, and broke the habit. The Graves Disease and all the overshooting with thyroid levels once it was diagnosed really killed my ability to be active this year. I really don't enjoy feeling so weak. I'm considering this a small step towards getting that back. When the stairs are a habit again, I'll look for new physical activity to gradually add in.
2. Write down good things that happen. I picked up little pieces of cardstock to write on and drop in a jar to look at at the end of the year. I felt really negative about 2018 when I tried to look back on it. It wasn't until <username=anarfea> mentioned meeting me in her year end post that I even remembered that amazing trip I took down to 221bcon for the first time this year. Meeting so many people in person for the first time was amazing and so was the sleeper car I took home, OMG! Everyone's brains remember the bad over the good to a certain extent, possibly my anxious one more than average. Hopefully, next year this goal will help me remind myself of the good things instead of relying on others.
Things to do most days, for gradual improvement. I hope I can stick to them.
Hi
I am here, yeah. Been feeling pretty stressed about all the pressure to be active in like 17 different places and so kinda frozen up a bit. No one person is telling me to be everywhere, so much as different people are telling me different things and I have no idea what's gonna work out so how do I choose?
And I know, ultimately posts like this don't actually grow the site into the thing I want it to be. I wish I had something creative to post...I've been feeling that way about pillowfort for months. But I've not been able to make things for ages and it's coming down on me hard right now. I want to grow things but I have nothing to contribute.
I know there are others out there probably feeling this way too, so just thought I'd say it, if it makes anyone feel better, maybe just me. Gonna put this exact thing on Pillowfort cause that's what I can manage.
